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               *** A Story by Dr. Gra"per ***
 
         4/10/79   1:30 pm     graper / udperuse / unidel
Dear Friend:
 
        The master of reality?  You want that back?  
Christ, I spent five weeks in a detoxification center 
to get rid of that.  All those weird daydreams put up
in PLATO's infinite brain, jeez, I can't go back to doing
that again.  I mean, look, I cut my hair and am wearing
a clean shirt and a pair of clean pants and shoes and
support capitalism and everything.  
        I mean, you wake up in the morning and like, your
dad is eating his morning fried egg and your mom is talking
her morning-fried-egg talk and the goddamn radio is going
"Blah blah blah, makin' love, blah blah blah!" and the
first thing you see is this Jefferson Airplane poster on
the wall and you look around the room and see paper, paper
paper all over the place with numbers and words scribbled
all over them and then it hits you that you've got a term
paper due tomorrow and you'll have to stay up pretty late
tonight to get it all done and you really are going to have
a pretty rough time getting that program working for class
 
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               *** A Story by Dr. Gra"per ***
 
         4/10/79   1:37 pm     graper / udperuse / unidel
before tomorrow and how you were supposed to have all
twelve chapters of that book read last week and then your
mother does a percussion solo in the kitchen by banging all
the pots and pans together because she's pissed off that
Elmira what's-her-name didn't show up for the united bible
society methodist fundamental third conference seventh
chapter division of the second district cupcake baking 
society meeting and.
        You go out in the living room, slightly sick,
see your dad and begin to suffer genetic hallucinations
because you know____ that you're gonna look just like that____
in a few years and marry something that looks like your mom
or at least will____ look like your mom after living with you
for a few years and dad starts grumping about something
and you try, what with him and mom and the radio and brother
all talking simultaneously, you try to forget your knowledge
of the English language for a while and get your books and
get the hell out of their house and
        The bus comes and everyone on it is a business
 
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               *** A Story by Dr. Gra"per ***
 
         4/10/79   1:45 pm     graper / udperuse / unidel
major, talking about accounting exams and wearing weird
television hairstyles and looking at you, huddled by your-
self in a corner, thinking things about you that aren't
really nice but not bad either because, after all, you don't
smoke on the bus or take up two seats or misuse your bus
riding rights and
        Into the University where everyone sits in class
copying down other people's thoughts like millions of
secretaries, you included, in fact you are one of the better
secretaries but people sure couldn't tell, no they can't,
look at that guy over there! He's writing a story on his
desk! He's probably on drugs!  How did the accounting exam
go?  
        On and on into the afternoon, the evening, 
go home at 12:00 and watch the ABC Captioned News for the
Deaf, start doing those problems scribble scribble scribble
scratch erase and a great naked ape sits in a Lazy-Boy(c)
recliner, his guts feeling upset and his body perspiring
because he can't move an abstract symbol from one side of
an equation to another on a piece of paper and, hell, I'll
 
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               *** A Story by Dr. Gra"per ***
 
         4/10/79   1:52 pm     graper / udperuse / unidel
get it tomorrow, back into that room and the Jefferson
Airplane poster on the wall and suddenly its morning again.
        So I decided to cut my hair, wear clean pants and
clean shirts and so on.
        Suddenly, it's get up in the morning, take a walk
around the block, say hello to the neighbors, pet the dog.
Hi Mr. Carson!  Hello Dave!
        Chug down a glass of milk, boy oh boy, then let's
get some homework done!  Good Morning, Dave!  Good Morning!
Smiles smiles smiles.  Looks like it's gonna be a nice
day!  You bet!  
        What Dad?  You think the gutters should be repainted
this year?  Hmm, I'd never noticed.  Why, I guess they do!
Maybe we can do that this weekend, after cleaning up the
lawnmower!  Heh heh, we'll need it ready! Summers coming,
you know!  Heh heh heh.
        Time to catch the bus to the university.  Hey, 
Carl!  How did your accounting exam go?  Great!  Sit down
quiet, look out the window, hmm, you know, I could review 
my notes right now before going to class and raise some
 
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               *** A Story by Dr. Gra"per ***
 
         4/10/79   5:52 pm     graper / udperuse / unidel
good questions in class!  Guess I'll do that!
        Professor??  Professor?? Could you explain that
point again?  I mean, wasn't it Watzlawick who came up with
the original ideas of role playing as a changer of attitudes
and attribution behavior?  Yes.  Right.  Um hmm.  I see.
        Sure, sure, I'll see you later hi jim how are you
who's your friend glad to meet you yeah yeah, see you later
yeah, right.